In my case, I didn’t voluntarily remove myself from lif;, God did it so that He would be able to get my attention. That was a hard time for me because I felt like no one cared about me, no one treated me how I thought they should, I had lost a few people in my life that I loved, my best friend/sister was never available, and everything and everyone familiar were removed. This was the first time I truly was lonely! I couldn’t run to people anymore because they simply weren’t there. I didn’t turn to the world for solutions either, because I had no one around me to co-sign it. But after feeling lonely for quite sometime I began to seek repair of my relationship with God and he began to reveal Himself to me as well as reward me for my trust in Him. When things got better, God outdid Himself. He began to bless my face off!
So I ask, “Is what you are dealing with too big for God to handle?” “The answer is, No!”
What I learned is that feeling lonely is a time to seek comfort and refuge from our Father. Have you ever heard the saying when it’s hardest to pray, pray your hardest? With thoughts of suicide that is a perfect time to apply it.
Find comfort in knowing you may feel lonely for a season but God will never leave you! Furthermore, ask yourself is God trying to get my attention and if He is, what is he trying to teach me, then ask Him. It wasn’t until my “Lord-what-is-it!” moment that He revealed to me that I needed to rely on him and not people or the world.
In Psalm 149:4-5 David had a moment similar to mine. He definitely responded better than I did. So, let’s reflect on his example. First, David expressed his bout with loneliness and that no one cared about Him. He didn’t remain in this moment because he knew who he served. He immediately followed his despair with, when I can’t take it anymore Lord, you know where you’re guiding me and what you are shaping me for. When I have no where to turn I know I can find refuge in you. Let David’s example be our example of how to respond to loneliness.
When you feel like you can’t go on, talk to God and ask Him to bear the weight for you and trust that He will. Ask that He bring you peace and understanding. And find comfort in his promises to you.
When you’re having a really, really terrible day go through this list.
1. Take a moment and think about what and who you have to live for, truly.
2. Look back over your life and see how God has turned things around in the past.
3. Find someone you can talk to and ask for help.
4. Get out of the house and do positive activities.
5. Remember you matter and your testimony matters.
If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts and need someone to talk to, here are a few contacts that can be helpful:
Military Veteran Suicide Hotline:
Suicide Hotline in Spanish:
Don’t bottle up the emotions, let it out in a healthy way and seek healing!
If any of you have a testimony that deals with suicide, please share what God has done for you! If you know anyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts, and if you yourself are dealing with it, post their first name and we will pray for each other asking God for healing deliverance and revelation.
‘Til next time, y’all be blessed!